LOVING MYSELF

This arrived in my mail box today....and it spoke to me. The wonderful thing is that it arrived at the exact right moment for me. It arrived right after I had the insight that my difficult day yesterday offered me a gift of awareness. I realized this morning that my experience yesterday, of course had to do with the feelings I was feeling, but it also had as much to do with what I was telling myself, what I was saying out loud, and what I was believing about what I was feeling. It's clear to me that my ego's role, the power of my unconscious beliefs, have a huge effect on me.

Now admittedly I was experiencing a lot of grief, sadness, discouragement, disappointment, etc etc. But when I paid attention to the things I said about what I was feeling, I realized how my thoughts, judgements and beliefs about what I was feeling intensified the experience, and had me feeling like a victim of my own feelings!

This, for me, is a huge and important realization. I can feel whatever I feel, and I can say things that are supportive, conscious, and helpful as I feel them. I can choose not to make myself feel worse by saying things that come out of an old and obsolete belief system.

I also saw so clearly that eating does not help. And actually, I ate after I had expressed what I was feeling and had already released a lot energetically. lol Again, what I tell myself about the need to eat is key here. I 'm digging deep for unconscious beliefs and thoughts and where I find them is right smack in my behavior. :)

So I am grateful that I'm feeling better today. I'm grateful for this awareness. And today is a new day.

Weight today: 219.5. Lemonade is all made. Got an appointment this morning. I'll walk later. Then client sessions and writing are on my agenda. I get to do a lot of creative things today!

Oh, I almost forgot, here's the quote:

"...Do not give yourself more attention than you need, but take care of yourself and do not continually slay the God within you. Give opportunities in your daily life for the Christ within to manifest itself. This is what we mean by loving yourself, and this is what Jesus meant when he said ‘Thou shalt love thy neighbor as thyself. ‘ Love peace of mind, love doing the right thing, love living according to divine law."~White Eagle

Later: I feel terrific today! Lemonades are tasting good. Did an hour of exercise. Working with clients, hired my graphic designer to design a business card for me after he did such a great job on my logo. Putting the word out about a book printer and have some inspired ideas to follow up on. Had a few small bites of food. No biggie.

I am choosing peace of mind, I am doing the right thing, and I am asking for divine guidance.

And then a friend of mine and my husband's asked if we'd like to join them in Sedona in April. I had just put out to the Universe that Sedona was one of the next places I want to visit. Love it!!